Spotlight

To me speaking or even performing in public is exhilarating. Having my hands shaking, my heart pounding and my throat dry is one of the biggest adrenaline rushes for me. Those nerves people always say are the worst? Well to me those nerves are one of the best feelings ever. I love the rush it gives me, sure I am kind of freaked out inside (otherwise I wouldn't be getting these butterflies in my stomach) but after I perform I feel rejuvenated. I love the after effect too. The moment after the glory where I begin to calm down and think “wow, I just did that”, the moment where I am impressed with myself, because the person that is calming down would freak out if I had to do it again...well at least later that same day. This is when I am most proud of myself, knowing that I just sacrificed myself to the public's watchful eyes and ears. That I just risked embarrassment of the century to get someone else's attention just for a few minutes. I crave being in the spotlight, and public speaking is one of the best ways to get this desire satisfied. That is why I have this urge to speak at my graduation, I want to feel the rush and be able to say that I did it; that I was one of the four kids out of ninety one that was able to speak at graduation. I want all the spectators to look at me with awe on their faces. I want to impress; but in order to do this I have to write a spectacular speech. One that will stand out of all the ninety one other ones, one that will captivate my audience and one that will be original. I think I might be over my head a little, but one can hope.